I don’t care what you think
but how do you like me now?
Like this? I’m wanting a lot of sex
and I’m wanting it with many people
but I don’t do that,
and I don’t lie, but that’s not totally true.
I don’t want to be beholden.
I mean, who does?
But somebody tell me, how do you avoid it?
My friends are constantly offering me food and gifts,
coming by my house to say hi, and bringing me hand-me-downs
for our daughters, and my husband keeps going to work and taking
care of shit, and telling me I’m looking fine when I doubt it, and I don’t
know how to take in all this goodness and grace.